Where to begin? I want to tell you lovelies something I’ve only told one person as of a few days ago. As I type this, my fingers freeze up; not willing to transpose the thoughts in my head. But I’m going to tell you what’s in my head even if it takes me all day.
As I have mentioned before, I had a painful split with my soul sister this past year. I initiated it. I purposely kept the reason I broke off with her under wraps because it hurt me too much to revisit that moment. So here it is…
I told her I couldn’t do it anymore, I couldn’t maintain my long-distance relationship with her if she’d never answer any of my phone calls or text messages. She told me she wouldn’t argue with me and she’d leave if that’s what’d make me happy. I never said “good-bye,” I simply deleted all of her contact information off my phone. Needless to say, I didn’t sleep well that night.
The reason I’m telling you this story now is that I’ve finally come to a revelation: I shouldn’t be haunted by her leaving. She did want I wanted her to, I did what I needed to do, our relationship was that intimate that I could tell her it was over and she didn’t even question it. I believe that moment is worthy of the title “the most beautiful moment in life.” Beauty doesn’t always mean happiness. Sometimes, beauty is simply making the most of a situation.
I shouldn’t be sorrowful that our relationship ended, I should be grateful that it happened because she taught me how to love again. And maybe one day…I can use what I learned with someone who’ll stay.
Before I conclude this post, I want to extend a huge thank you to Zee for listening to me. She’s the sole reason that I had the strength to write this post. I strongly encourage you lovelies to stop by her blog, she’s a great inspiration to me both in writing and as a person.